Monthly Archives: April 2011

In Love

I’m in love. Totally. Happily. Completely. Joyfully. Without Reservation. Hopelessly. Crazily. Helplessly. I wasn’t looking for it. I wasn’t expecting it. She wasn’t looking for it. She wasn’t expecting it. Karma brought us together through a picture of a horse. In each other’s writing we recognized ourselves. Our hearts spoke to each other. Our souls

The Thaw

I’m in a good mood. Happy. Not about any one thing. Just generally happy. My friends tell me it’s been about 10 days. I noticed it about 5 days ago. It’s been so long that I’ve been in a good mood it took me 2 days to figure out what it was I expected the

Snapshot of Grief

About a week ago, while listening to It’s Been Awhile by Staind a three line verse jumped out at me: Why must I feel this way Please make this go away Just one more peaceful day and it made me wonder if my late wife felt this way as she lost her battle to addiction.

Suddenly Single

The call came this afternoon that I have been both expecting and dreading for a year. My wife’s ex-husband and father of my step-sons went to check on my wife because no one has heard from her in a couple of days. Both not hearing from her for several days and him being the most

The Marriage Ends

This month last year started my late wife’s downward spiral that completed the destruction of our marriage and led to her death. This month last year is when I started telling my older step-son everything that was going on and all of the history that had gotten us here. This month last year is when

How Do I Explain?

How do I explain to you why a father and a step-father have left your life in its short 11 years? Yes, you are with your father now, but I remember watching your pain when you realized that he left you at birth. And I know you are miserable there. I can explain with cold

Slow Day at Work

It’s a slow day at work and I’m distracted.  By thoughts of you enjoying a lazy morning reading in bed.  Working from home has some definite advantages… I set my online status to “Away” with some vague message and walk to the bedroom.  Flopping across the bed beside you, sliding my arms under your back,

Quickie (the first)

Thinking of you in that denim skirt.  Bending you over the couch.  Sliding my hands up your thighs, fingers teasing under your skirt.  Feeling you push back into my hands as my fingers caress the cheeks of your ass.  Pushing your skirt up, my hands on your ass. admiring your curves as i spread your

Picnic

Ah – Saturdays.  A day to get out of the office chair and spend some time outside.  And it’s a beautiful day to be outside.  Temperatures in the mid-80′s. Sky full of blue with the occasional puffy white cloud lazily moving across the sun. I’m working in the barn.  Building the framing for the new

Designated Driver

It’s a girls’ night out and I agree to be your designated driver.  Which means picking you up, a little tipsy, from where y’all chose for the evening’s festivities. I arrive at the requested time and call your cell to let you know I’m here.  A couple minutes later you come out.  You look yummy